She's sleeping

So I will try to update while she is quiet.  Seriously, last night was the toughest yet.  This child would not sleep.  She was wide awake from 7pm-4am.  Luckily, it was a quiet awake and not a screaming/crying awake.  Then, she went to sleep from 4-6 and was up again.  She's slept a little bit this morning but not for any stretches longer than 30 minutes.  I feel terrible for Mike.  He's been absolutely amazing at making sure I get sleep at night by taking her until she falls asleep.  Last night he would not let me take her from him though.  And he was soooo tired.  He's worried that if I walk with her and don't rest, I won't heal from the c-section.    Poor thing held her ALL NIGHT and then went to work this morning.  I LOVE that he cares so much for me and her, but I'm worried that he's going to make himself sick if he doesn't get some rest.  I really hope this little girl figures out the difference between night and day soon.

Anyway, I didn't start this post to complain.  I started it to show you more pictures of this little girl.

First day home.  Isn't that the cutest dress.  Oh, and that pacifier... Drives me crazy but keeps her happy so it has become a permanent fixture.  

Bridget and Mike with his brother and sister (and Chiisai).  His little brother is so cute with her.  He thinks having the "uncle" title is the absolute greatest thing in the world.

Meeting great-grandma for the first time. Grandma was amazed with all the hair. (as is everyone it seems)

First bath. (well, sponge bath b/c her cord stump is still there) She was NOT happy with the getting wet part but she LOVED the baby towel. This kid loves to be swaddled.

Finally, Happy First Father's Day to Mike. We took this last night so it's the most up to date picture of her. I can't believe she is already more than two weeks old.

Well, she's waking up.  I got lucky with 45 minutes.  I have other things to post about (my awesome mom, the adorable gift from Rotten, the animals' reaction to the little one) so, hopefully I'll get to them in a few days.  

I miss you all.  I'm still keeping up with you.  I'll comment when I can.  

Quick, quick

She's here.  She's home.  We're all adjusting.  She's still as sweet as can be (even when she's crying and making us lose our minds.)  I'll try to post more tomorrow.  For now I'm going to try to catch a nap while she is.   

She's coming HOME!

Tomorrow (barring any crazy last minute setbacks) I will have a baby IN MY HOUSE!  And not just any baby.  My sweet little Bridget.

She has to pass the "Car seat Challenge" tonight. (does any one else hear a crazy sports announcer with that?)  I guess they'll put her in her car seat and she just has to sit there and not have any problems while she's in there.  I don't see any problems arising but it's still that little nagging worry in the back of my mind.

Then, she has a hearing screening tomorrow.  And her last dose of antibiotics is at noon tomorrow.  So, all things going as planned, we'll be able to take her out of that stupid hospital and NICU and she'll be home with mommy and daddy in her own house tomorrow at 1:00.  I'm so excited/anxious/overwhelmed.  But in a good way.

And just because I can, more pictures of my baby.  Because everyone loves baby pictures!

She sleeps a lot. And she LOVES to be swaddled.  Don't those little baby hats crack you up?  She looks like she's trying to hide little horns.  And that yellowy jaundice color has gone away. Hooray!  

Daddy and Bridget.  Isn't that the sweetest picture?  Although it looks like Mike's shirt is trying to cut off Bridget's IV.

A way over exposed picture of me with the cutest baby ever! And starting tomorrow, I'll be able to hold her whenever I want to for as long as I want to!

We're all still here

Hey there guys.  Sorry it's been awhile.  My schedule has been:  take pain meds, sleep, walk to NICU to feed/visit the beautiful baby, walk back from NICU, eat, take pain meds, sleep, ...

I'm finally a little ahead so I'm getting pictures uploaded and doing a small update.  So without further ado, I introduce you to our baby:  Miss Bridget Marie Simpson Ourlastname.

Isn't she beautiful?! So much black hair it's crazy. Especially since Mike and I both have lightish brown hair. :) Everyone in the hospital calls her "the miracle baby" because my labor was completely insane and even though I don't like to think about it, we both could have lost our lives.  I can't go completely into the whole thing right now (just too hard emotionally), but she had a cord prolapse during the pushing and  was delivered/born 7 minutes later by emergency c-section.  It was frightening/scary/worrisome/every other word you could think would apply.  So really, it's amazing that we're all here and relatively healthy.  And she's just  perfect.  

She's still in the NICU and will be for 7-10 days now. She's developing a bit of jaundice. I'm trying like crazy to get her to feed enough so that she doesn't have to go under the bili lights. Her while blood cell count is a bit high and something else is also coming back positive (the neonatalogist used a technichal term and all I can remember is it starts with a "c") So, she'll have to be on antibiotics for at least 7 days though IV. :( I'm hoping that by day 7, she'll be all better and we can bring her home.

I'm recovering slowly.  I'm walking and got to take a shower yesterday.  Oh.my.god. who knew something could feel so good?!  

Mike has been absolutely amazing during the whole thing.  He's a fantastic husband and father.  It makes me cry to see him holding her and see the love on his face.  

Anyways, I'm getting sleepy so I'm going to take a nap before I get up to feed her again.  Thank you all so much for the thoughts and prayers.  They must have gotten to the right people because our prayers sure have been answered.  

she's here

I'll post a complete update sometime in the next few days, but she's here.  It took 22 hours and an emergency c-section, but she is out and beautiful (i've been told.  I have still not seen her.)  she'll be in the NICU for the next 5-7 days which kills me, but at least we live close by and will of course be staying here with her as much as possible.  Please keep us in your thoughts.  

She's on her way

Looks like eviction notice worked.  We are in the hospital.  I will update again when she is here.

GO BABY!

It's been almost 41 weeks

I unabashedly stole this from my friend JackiJaguar. She served this to her little one and the next day was headed to the hospital. Here's to hoping this little one will take notice!

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June 4, 2009


Dear Baby Goldenrod,

This letter is in regards to previous requests to rectify issues resulting in complaints from your neighbors. Your belongings continue to exceed the amount permitted given the square footage of the property which is in direct violation of housing code M.O.M., section 5.15. We have tried to work with you to address this situation in a cordial manner, but are sorry to inform you that you are ordered to vacate the premises immediately. You must remove all belongings within 48 hours, return your key to the office and leave the property in the condition you initially found it in (minus normal wear and tear). Failure to do so will result in the loss of your security deposit.

Thank you,
The Management

I think I've hit the breaking point

Seriously people, I'm losing it here.  I can't stop crying.  The closest thing I can get to a description of how I'm feeling is angry.  It's mixed in with frustration and confusion and anxiety, but mostly I feel angry.

Today is the last day of school.  I really wanted to go in and see my kids one last time.  But no, I'm stuck here at home because I don't have a car and I'm afraid to go anywhere alone anyways.  I know that's silly but I'm just so scared that I'll go into labor and won't be able to drive back home.  Plus, then Mike wouldn't have a way to get here.  I'd rather he had the car so that he can get here if I need him.  So here I sit, getting more frustrated woth waiting and NOTHING happening.   I just hate it so much.  I hate waiting.  I hate not knowing.  I'm tired.  And I'm angry.

Nothing to report **updated**

Just wanted to let you all now that there's still no baby arrival.  I'm about to head out for an NST and then a doctor's appointment.  I'm feeling pretty crappy today.  I'm kinda hoping that it will lead to labor.  I'll let you now if there's anything interesting later today.

Alrighty, so I've been having contractions here and there today.  Caught three during the 20 minute NST.  TOCOS was going up to about 35 so they're getting stronger.  But alas, they have stopped now.  Oh yeah, and my bp was 118/68.  SWEET!  I was quite proud.  haha.

The doctor says I'm at almost 3cm dilated, 70% effaced, and the baby is at a -3 station (firmly against the cervix but not pushing down yet.)  He says nothing will likely change until labor actually starts.  But hey, I've definitely made progress.  They say the first stage of labor is progressing from 0-3.  Does that mean I'm already done with that part?  If so, that was easy.  :)

So, now we just keep waiting.  Hopefully she shows in the next few days.  My doctor is apparently going out of town this weekend so if she comes after Friday, someone I have never met will be delivering the baby.  Hmmm....  Oh well I gess.  As long as she gets here and is healthy, I'll be happy.